Identity crisis.

Growing up I was always a bit of a tomboy. I've always felt more comfortable in jeans and a top.

As I got older I have mixed feeling.
My main clothing is black jeans, with whatever clean top I can find.

There are times where I want to wear more feminine clothes, but I can never find ones I like. Or, I don't feel comfortable in them.

My hair is quite short now, but when it was longer I would always have it down. Never do anything with it at all.

The only make up I would wear is eyeliner.

Sometimes I just don't feel like a girl, and I want to. I wouldn't say I'm a girly-girl at all, but I'm not a tom boy either. I feel somewhat confused, and unsure of myself.

Yesterday I bought some lipstick, eyeshadow, and lip gloss. I decided to try it on when my sister Felicity said I should try foundation. I've tried it before, and didn't like it but since I was putting on other make up decided to give it ago again.

I'm very pale, but she had the lightest foundation anyway... But it was still too dark for my sun deprived skin. My face had an obvious orange tinge. =/

And my sister Jacqueline said I should try her mascara on since I had pretty much everything else on. So I did.

With my make up on I felt fine, but with theirs I felt wrong, and uncomfortable.

I just felt wrong with so much make up on.

I feel like the person I am, and the person I want to be are different. I feel lost.