Nearly unnoticed.

She is lonely
Even though you can't tell
She is reaching out
For what, she doesn't know
She will continue to sit in silence
And hope that someone may stumble across
Her and all of her emptiness
But they only hope that they do it in time
Otherwise she will have drifted too far
And she may let go
Of whatever grasp of the world she has
As she slowly fades out of the lives of everyone
Nearly unnoticed.
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Not Written By me

I didn't write these.

Silence builds an awful wreckage of a girl

It feeds on loneliness and creates a void

Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture

A teenager is stricken and destroyed

There is no sound of laughter or happiness here

The little one has thrown in the towel today

Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul

It is futile to hope and dream and pray

Emptiness builds a home in this woman

In this girl, this child where hollows have bred

A deepening sea of nowhereness consumes

And eats away at every connecting thread

Confusion feeds like a savage inside her,

Leaving nothing considered worthy remains

Destined to walk through life less ordinary

Alone, exiled, different and disdained.

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..> ..>

Window panes come crashing down Amidst the tears and pain Vanishing hopes are gone and flew away Up above through twilight Shadows cast across the floor Reflections of the past Trembling thoughts of one Dwelling deep within the soul A mystical sense of reality Captured by the craze All in bewilderment Of the shock in the wave Creatures of the dimness Chattering amongst the green Everything slows in stillness What is this we see?

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I must admit that I have often thought

of leaving it all behind and letting everything go

I was lost and alone, as I always am,

So many people around me,

Yet no one seems to care.

They say they understand and love me very much,

But just when I Trust to love, they forget and move on.

I held the knife so close

as tears, mixed with blood,

Began to fall slowly.

Like a foolish child I cried.

Knowing that I could end it all now

made my mind draw a blank.

I put the knife away and tried to wipe the blood,

that ran faster than I can describe.

I knew suicide wasn't the answer I was looking for.

I knew there was a reason for me being alone.

So many bad things happening at once -

They can make you forget

About the good qualities of life.

Even though life is hard,

and trouble an inevitable part of it.

If you decide to leave it all behind,

maybe you will,

but I can guarantee that others

....Your Mistake will haunt

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Harsh words & violent blows Hidden secrets nobody knows Eyes are open, hands are fisted Deep inside I'm warped & twisted So many tricks & so many lies Too many whens & too many whys Nobody's special, nobody's gifted I'm just me, warped & twisted Sleeping awake & choking on a dream Listening loudly to a silent scream Call my mind, the number's unlisted Lost in someone so warped & twisted On my knees, alive but dead Look at the invisible blood I've bled I'm not gone, my mind has drifted Don't expect much, I'm warped & twisted Burnt out, wasted, empty, & hollow Today's just yesterday's tomorrow The sun died out, the ashes sifted I'm still here, warped & twisted

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I press my forehead on the window

And through it watch children

Playing on the lawn

Desolation pulses through my veins

And my futile fingers reach out for guidance

I savor the blade, sinking deeper than blue

I can taste tranquility for a wavering instance

The anger flows down my arm as the bitter black blood

Burns off my fingertips

Death swims before me in hazy illusion

Images of eternity skip shamelessly through my mind

Pain surrounds, I am resolved to be - still

I run my hand on the tear stained window

And distorted through it

Watch children playing on the lawn.

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