I think I like the whole chase thing of a guy.

Well I don't really chase guys.

But like, the whole being flirty and stuff.

Like, with My first boyfriend Chris.

I liked him for about a year and a half before we actually became a couple.

But then I broke up with him 45 days later!

I think I liked liking him more then I actually liked him..

If that makes sense!

I liked the whole looking at each other from across the room

Without saying a word

The looks said it all.

The whole way he would always try to sit next to me.

He knew I liked him.

I had always hoped he liked me.

But he never actually admitted it.

So i would always wonder.

And also, once

He didn't come to church for ages.

[I only ever seen him once a week at Saturday night church]

And when he came back he had a girlfriend.

I cried at church!

I felt to heartbroken!

I don't like it when a guy I like totally throws himself at me.

It ruins the fun.

I don't like relationships.

But I like the whole chase.

And I don't like it when a guy I don't like chases me.

Hmm.

One thing I actually miss about having a boyfriend...

Kissing!

P.s I have no idea if that made sense!

It's hard to explain what I mean